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Today is Christmas – And It Sucks

  ********************************************** In memory of my beloved husband John Kelly Snyder… 20 Sep 1956 – 21 Oct 2016. The Warrior Project will be a warm, welcoming drop-in center for those living with extreme emotional and/or physical pain coupled with hopelessness, and … Continue reading

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What If I Came Back and You Had Remarried?

  About 10 years ago, John and I were talking about random stuff… lovers’ talk.  The kinds of things one says when you’re having those completely giddy, head-over-heels feelings one gets at times when you’re so in love you can barely … Continue reading

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Waiting for Something

I just keep feeling like I’m waiting for something. John died two months ago, and I can’t seem to move. I’m waiting for something but have no idea what. For him to come home, I guess. It’s kind of like … Continue reading

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The Reason for Pain

Decades ago when I was in my early 20s my ex-husband – not my soul-mate husband who died recently,  but a good and brilliant man nonetheless – gave me this answer in response to my demand to understand “why animals … Continue reading

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Does It Hurt When Friends Call to Check In?

Just got a call from a friend who wanted to check in. She said that lots of our mutual friends are thinking of me, but are afraid to call or check in themselves, because they don’t want to upset me, … Continue reading

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My Daily Grief

As much as I love(d) my husband, I have no desire to feel the kind of pain I’m in for the rest of my life.  I LOVE(D) that man.  Ask anyone who knew me.  It was always about John.  (Or … Continue reading

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