Waiting for Something

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I just keep feeling like I’m waiting for something. John died two months ago, and I can’t seem to move. I’m waiting for something but have no idea what.

For him to come home, I guess.

It’s kind of like the feeling you get when you don’t want to start a project or housework or paying bills because you know the minute you do, your husband will walk through the door and everything you’re doing will have to be put on hold because you’re so glad to see him.

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In memory of my beloved husband John Kelly Snyder… 20 Sep 1956 – 21 Oct 2016.

The Warrior Project is a warm, welcoming drop-in center for those living with extreme emotional and/or physical pain coupled with hopelessness, and a resource for families and friends fearing for the life of, or grieving the loss of, the person they love so much.

My Johnny was a true warrior, fighting physical pain and other demons no one else could see.  I thought he was the strongest man in the world, and perhaps he was, but tragically, the pain and the demons got the better of him.

The name of this project is in no way intended to be reflective of, or piggy back off, Wounded Warriors which serves those wounded after September 11, 20o1.  Like too many others, John was a warrior long before then.

Fair winds and following seas, Husband.

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